Current cycle stuff..boring post I know

Last cycle was pretty crazy and disappointing. My IUI number 3 had to get cancelled due to just having a lot of cysts, but no mature follicles. I started my next period on day 19, way too early. Obviously things are off. I met with my RE. He said to try letrozole this cycle as a last ditch effort since I can't do injectables due to my unicornuate uterus and risk of multiples. I was a twin, and had three of four grandparents as identical twins. So twins are a big possiblility, and throwing injectables into the mix when I'm not okay with selective reduction is not an option.

So I'm currently cycle day 10...am going to have lab work done tomorrow and ultrasound on Sunday..hopefully I'll ovulate on my connected UU side (the left since the right is missing) and we can do an IUI on Monday or Tuesday...keep your fingers and toes crossed. But all and all I don't have much hope for this cycle. I think the IVF starting next month journey will be the way we have to go. I meet with the doc from the maternal fetal medicine group (perinatologist) next wednesday to get an opinion as to how many embryos I should transfer when we do IVF. I've met with one before, but he went to another hospital system..so I am meeting with who is left at their group. Hubby wants to transfer 2...I want to transfer 1. I don't think in my heart that I can do selective reduction if both embryos actually implant. Gosh these are decisions I never thought I would be faced with! It's funny...both hubby and I are Catholic...and IVF shouldn't be an option for us...but we are cafeteria catholics I guess and are okay with fertility treatments because they are done in a loving enviroment...although I'm pretty liberal because I'm open to issues like gay marriage, and stem cell research that the catholic church frowns on.

It's funny, during the 12 years of catholic school I went to...nothing of this was discussed...but maybe it should have been. I've begun to realize there isn't black and white issues like I thought. Everyone needs to do what is right for them whether it involves fertility treatments, egg or sperm donation...surrogacy, adoption, freezing embryos, donation for gay or lesbian couples...whatever. I used to be so closed minded...but gosh how I've changed now that I'm among such a touchy subject. I've begun to realize that people don't realize what they are saying til they've been through some of it. People need just to be supportive and non judgemental...they get that enough from the rest of the world...they don't need it from us.

Anyways...sorry for the boring post...I'm just rambling on issues that most people don't care about. But all my point was is that people are probably aren't as open to many paths until they've been faced with their own demons. I think the best thing we can do for each other is be supportive since those who have not gone through the journey have no idea what we are talking about!