The long awaited (dreaded?) beta is in from IVF #1

Well, I woke up this morning and began by washing my hair with conditioner instead of shampoo...no biggie...I'm not that vain. Then I quickly got ready and hopped in my car, drove to the office and had my lab drawn. My favorite lab lady was there M. Then I decided what the heck could I do for three to four hours while I waited? I got in my car..wasted some time at Tar.get, and went to the mall...bought some clothes of course. By now as I was driving home, I was so anxious I thought I might accidentally veer off and hit a tree or something. The sanity was slipping away to a point of no return I feared. Finally what seemed like an eternity I got home and played with my doggie for a little while.

Before I knew it, my phone was ringing...it was my RE's office, I almost dropped the phone. It was my favorite nurse K. She said "Hi Sara, it's K. for Dr. M.'s office. I have the results of your beta." Then silence..silence so much that I finally said..."Hello?" There was nothing...my cell phone had dropped her call.....Are you flipping kidding me? Well actually what I was muttering out loud was much more creative..and had a string of words I probably shouldn't type. I waited a second and called their office. The line was busy. Are you kidding me? Is this a joke?

Finally, which seemed like forever (actually it was like a minute or two)...she called my cell back. Long story short... My beta was 105 and I'm pregnant! I can't believe that this IVF worked...the IVF that they wanted to cancel up to two days prior...the IVF cycle that they said okay we can go ahead and do it...but you may not have any embryos make it to day three since you have so few..are you sure you want to still do this. I'm so glad we took a chance and said yes.

I called my husband....he was in a meeting...but was so excited. He said he would be home in "a little while." Thank goodness it's Friday! I have to go back in for a repeat beta on Tuesday...I guess they repeat theirs in four days...not two like some offices. I'm excited, but feeling so cautious as well...I just want that number to rise...rise please! Thanks again for all of your kind words, encouragement and helping me keep my sanity! Right now I'm still in disbelief. I keep thinking that they must have given me some other girl's results...because I'm not the girl who gets pregnant...I can't even quite say the words....I'm pregnant. Maybe someday soon. For now...I'll just have to think the words in my head...since saying them aloud is a lot harder than I thought it would be.