Bath time and four months old

I can't believe Brynn turned 4 months this past weekend. Thank you so much for letting me rant and complain about going back to work in my last post. Not trying to be a downer...just having a little bit harder time than I thought getting adjusted back. I really despise being away from her, but I'm trying not to complain because I know I have a very good situation with my mom watching her and only having to work part time. I feel like I sound unappreciative and I don't want that to be the case at all. I've just always tried to be open and honest about my feelings...so thanks for letting me lay it down on the line! This was Brynn after she had her first bigger girl bath the other day.

It's amazing how much she's changed since this other photo just taken eight weeks ago shown below.


Here's Brynn during the bath looking at me like, I'm not too sure of this mom. I do like the bathtub that my sister suggested because of the turquoise sling. It allows Brynn to sit in it and not slide down into the water. It also has a little side caddy area that you can fill with either clean water or keep another washcloth in or what ever. It also fits in either a double sink (like we have) or a single one.
So this morning I woke up after Brynn slept in until 8:30...yes 8:30! Then I was going to pump quickly and get her ready for her appointment at 10:00. After running a little late I decided to try to actually just breast feed her, which is something we're doing more and more of. Kind of crazy. She's the kid who wouldn't breast feed for 3 months and then when I decided to go back to work, Brynn decided that it was kind of a cool thing to do. Go figure. I didn't know that kids did that. But I'm not complaining. It just has me kind of left wondering why. The only problem I have is that I'm not sure how much she is getting when I feed her. She seems satisfied, but also seems to like to just suck afterwards. I know that this is normally a problem people have with a younger baby, but since Brynn and I are a bit new at this I'm still mucking my way through things. When I just pump and give it to her in a bottle I know what she's getting of course.

So after rushing off to our appointment and leaving Neela our dog gated out of the kitchen so she wouldn't storm the cleaning lady when she came...we were off. Yes, I still haven't let go of our cleaning lady that I truly don't need anymore. I just haven't gotten the nerve up yet in this bad economy. I'm such a wimp! I just really like her and I can't face up to the fact of letting her go. Maybe next week? It was very windy on our walk into the office and we were quickly taken in to an exam room. Brynn had the typical appointment of weighing in, measurements, and being seen by her doctor. When she was being weighed she let a noisy one rip...ah my little future Gas Passer...you make mommy so proud!

Basically she's measuring in the 5th percentile which is A-OK with me. She is 9lbs, 15 oz and 24 inches long. She's doing everything well except holding things in her hand as well as she should be. But to be honest..some days she does it, and some days she doesn't and I'm not going to obsess over it. Her LFTS don't have to be repeated until the end of the month. She smiles, coos, and is sleeping better. She is growing, and is on the growth chart...the bottom...but at least on it. Basically, she's growing and is happy - so that is good with me. She recently starting actually breastfeeding which she's never done in the past....that is very good with me. She looks at me with love in her eyes and that is like heaven to me. So Brynn....happy 4 months. Normally I would want to thank someone from blogland who has really touched us upon our journey...but today is for you. Brynn....thank you for making my life complete. I love you.