29 week housekeeping

I'm pleased to bring you a very boring post. Week 29 has started out very quietly - and if it were to end that way, then it would be a very perfect week! My week began with an uneventful appointment at the OB and for awhile as I sat in the waiting room surrounded by other round bellies and some not so round bellies I almost forgot the events of the past two weeks. Things just seemed so routine, and it suddenly hit me how much I appreciated the calmness of it all. One of the nurses whom I've really grown to love called my name and I obediently followed her to complete the pregnant woman appointment dance: give a pee sample - try not to pee on my hand, weigh in, blood pressure, answering questions about feeling fetal movement - and so we completed the little ritual. Next I plopped down and got comfortable for my NST - during which our little girl behaved very nicely. My dear old uterus also behaved nicely and I only had 3 contractions during the monitoring. Once seeing my OB we did a bit of housekeeping stuff that we had needed to do for the last two weeks, but hadn't really done since I had been at the hospital during that time. We went over the results of my glucose test, which I passed with a result of 83 for the one hour test- YAY! He glanced through my latest CBC and other results - noting that my liver function tests looked fine (only done since I'm on the Procardia) and that my Hbg/Hct was fine and I'm not anemic - double YAY! I kind of already knew that this stuff looked okay since they had drawn a lot of lab work while I was admitted recently - but it was still nice to see that these from a few weeks ago were within normal range as well. We also went over some questions I had about doing the cord blood that I had decided we wanted to do during the delivery. I've had the kit sitting at home for a few weeks, but I still had a few questions regarding the process that he answered for me today as well.

Tomorrow I have another NST, ultrasound for growth scan, and a cervix measurement which I'm hoping will go as boring as the first appointment for the week went. Despite me feeling like I was in a bit of a funk on the weekend - my mood seems to have lifted quite a bit since then. I'm not sure if it's me getting to catch the fall season premiere of three of our favorite shows last night - ahh the sweet relief of decent TV at last - or the fact that we're 29 weeks and I'm still home, but whatever it is I'll take it. I find myself fluctuating between feeling really happy and excited about the weeks ahead, and on the other hand feeling like time is suddenly standing still. I kind of talked with Meredith about this - and hopefully she doesn't mind me sharing her thoughts - but sometimes I feel exactly what she posted about the other day. I think she said it a lot better than I can, or at least put more openly and honestly than I would put it.

But for whatever reason mingled in all the jumble of emotions in my head I also feel very at peace with things in my head. I think maybe I'm finally seeing the end in sight? I have worried about things that are out of my control for so long and I've just reached the point where I'm finally realizing that what is going to happen is going to happen. I'm tired of worrying and trying to control things I have no control over. We're at a point where if things happened, there may be many days - even weeks of NICU time, but things would still move forward and life would go on, whether I worry about them or not. And you know what the really cool thing is? Not only will life move forward and go on....but life going forward is going to be VERY good. No matter what happens now- that life is going to involve our little girl - and that will be a very good life indeed.