Neela and Brynn are never far apart. Whether doing something that they shouldn't be doing like pulling on the vertical blinds or just trying to scale the porch.
On most nice evenings Brynn grabs her Dora ball and strolls along side Neela as we walk.
Thank you so much for your kind words. They have given me some bright spots which has been an otherwise difficult week for us. I don't think I realized at first how excited we were about the thought of being pregnant. We had never really thought about it as an option or as a "next step" for us at this point in adding to our family. So we were blindsided when it happened - but then we were filled with a joy so big, I didn't know how my heart was going to contain it all. I feel so guilty over the moments that I experienced fear and anxiety over how we were going to make a pregnancy in MY uterus work, since we had planned on using someone else's uterus to carry our next child. What a waste of emotion that fear and anxiety was since it was moments I missed out on experiencing the complete and utter joy I was feeling at every other second. If anything I think I'm realizing that fear is utterly useless - it just robs you of time you could be spending and devoting towards enjoying the here and now. The here and now of those few weeks we were pregnant with our twins.
Right now I'm not sure where we're headed. My husband and I have to take a step back and let the dust settle a bit. I did call my fertility office the other day just to let them know what was happening. They sounded as shocked as we were feeling a couple of weeks ago. Somehow we ended up making an appointment for next Monday afternoon to discuss the future and what our options are. We still have our three frozen embryos awaiting our decision. I'm torn on how fast I want to steam roll ahead with adding to our family, but I'm feeling a bit of fire under my bum in wanting to give Brynn a sibling. But for now Brynn will have to enjoy her furry sibling Neela until we make some decisions over the next few weeks. While she enjoys Neela - I'm going to put any fear and worry about whatever decision we decide to go with aside. I'm going to enjoy the here and now - and fear isn't going to be a part of that. Not anymore.
Neela is about as good of a furry sibling as a mom could ask for to hang with Brynn - even if she does get confused sometimes. Oh well...Neela just says "You can't have beauty and brains!"
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Neela is such a sweet dog and Brynn is such a sweetie too! I am so glad they like each other so much. Elizabeth has started being so rough with her love of our dogs that we've had to start keeping them separated.
Thanks for your words of support. I'm so sorry to read about your recent loss. I hope the future holds only smooth sailing when it comes to family building.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not lean on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will direct your paths." - Proverbs 3:5-6
Still praying for you and the decisions you are making!
Neela is *such* a protective older sister to Brynn! What a wonderful relationship those two have. Just letting you know I'm sending more good vibes your way; and hoping that this appt with your doc will be able to provide you with some good options.
xoxo
Em
I am so happy to hear from you but I was so sad to hear about the miscarriage. I am sending you lots of hugs!
WOW Brynn has gotten so big and she is as adorable as ever! Hope to keep hearing from you!
Wow. I can't believe how big Brynn looks up walking and next to the dog. What a cutie.
Hang in there sweetie. I'm thinking about you. Hugs to you.
I'm so glad Brynn has a furry sibling. I love that they get along so well, too!
Brynn is so beautiful and precious, and Neela is too cute with her little buddy. Sending you peace and <3 always.
I love the idea of "here and now" and think that is a lesson that is hard to learn. I *love* your dog!!
I just read your previous post. I am so sorry. Sending you a million of virtual hugs. Brynn and Neela look so cute together. i can't believe how big Brynn is now. So cute !
Such a well-put post, Sara. Thanks for the reminder to not live in fear.
I am brokenhearted for you over the loss of your sweet babies. Really brokenhearted. I know there are brighter days ahead for you guys.
And Brynn and Neela are just so precious!
Thanks for your comment on my blog. :-)
Becca
So sorry about your loss.
Your lesson in fear is one that I never seen to quite master! It was beautifully written, best of luck with whatever you decide next.
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss ... visiting from LFCA. I know just what you mean about fear ... I feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop.
Thinking about you.
I am just catching up with everything and wanted to add my sincere condolences on the loss of your twins. It's not fair what some people have to go through in this world. My heart aches for you and your family.
The bond between an only child and their dog can be truly amazing. Bianca and Carter are best friends and sometimes I feel like they understand each other so much better than anyone else does.
You are still in my prayers and I hope you are guided in the right direction without fear.
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