So blogger actually seems to be working, wwhhooo hooo! All is well in Brynn, Neela, and Sara land! Currently I'm getting caught up with this season of ER. My husband downloaded all of the episodes so we're getting caught up on an old favorite TV show series. Brynn is 3 and a half months old and approaching the 10 pound mark. This past week she started sleeping through the night other than for her few feedings. Like I said, I feel like a new woman. The clock strikes 6:30AM and I wonder where the time has gone. I feel like something is wrong...like I've fallen asleep and missed the important happening on my shift or something! Tomorrow I take her for her repeat LFTs (liver function tests) and am praying for some good results. If they are off, elevated as they have been then we have to see a specialist. I'm praying that they are boring and not elevated at all!
I'm sorry that blogger seems to have eaten my last few posts. Basically all that I've meant to write can be posted in a few sentences. I go back to work a week from now and am having some poor feelings regarding leaving Brynn. I'm hoping that it works out for my best friend to watch her come summer time. In the meantime my mom will watch her, but it would be nice to have my mom as the back up and my best friend as her main squeeze sitter, LOL! So that is where we stand from now. In the meantime, since Brynn feeds so many times through the night, my other best friend's little sis is one of our main sitters and is watching her overnight before I have to work. I would love for her to watch her also but she has gotten a job with a home health aid agency so it's just a temporary situation I believe. It's too bad because not only does Brynn love her, but Neela does as well!
So basically next Monday my friend's little sister is going to come the night before I have to work. Then my mom is going to come midday and relieve her until my husband comes home. I'm hoping to just feed Brynn and pump before I leave for work. Hopefully then I'll be able to pump on my morning break around 9Am or so after leaving my morning case. Then hopefully I'll be able to pump during my lunch break as well. During my 12 hour shift I'll hopefully be able to pump during my afternoon break and then when I get home. I'm going back 20 hours a week. So I'll work an 8 hour shift and a 12 hour shift for now. For the months leading up to summer time I'm hoping to work some afternoons and midnights up in labor and delivery, which is a postition that has opened up for me. Basically I'll be working with most of the staff who took care of me for the last 8 weeks of my pregnancy so it should be a great situation.
Mostly I'll be doing doing the epidurals up in labor and delivery and will be on call for the OR. Sounds like a good situation and I'm looking forward to it. Also, I wanted to touch on my post that got erased with my FSH. Basically I had my FSH redrawn this past week. It is sky high and is not all that promising. It is borderline for premature ovarian failure and it has me bummed out. I don't want to be a drama queen...but I realize what it means. I'm not sure what to do. I'm sorry my last post erased. And I'm sorry I used vulgar language in it. I was upset. I'm trying to be more reasonable with it now. But to say I'm bummed would be an understatement. Hmm....not sure what to make of it. But I have to keep my head up I know. To want to swear and be silly seems immature. So I'm not going to do that right now.
I hope everyone is having a great weekend. Again, I apologize for my lack of blogging and my lack of response. Hopefully my account is fixed and I'm looking forward to moving ahead!
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welcome back sista! i was dying to read those posts and i would click on their titles on my blog and it wouldn't let me see them. then when i'd click on your blog name it would take me to the same posts over and over. i'm glad it's fixed now. Praying for you about those fsh levels and about baby brynn and her liver tests. keep us posted! love in Jesus... alesha
You have every right to cuss up a storm about your test. After all you went through to have Brynn, you would think that you could catch a break with something! Anyway- good luck tomorrow with the LFT and I will be sending prayers up for you!
I was having problems with Blogger, too. I haven't noticed anything on my blog, yet, but sometimes when I'd go to a page, there would be nothing to read. Just sidebars, weird. I wonder if they're doing some tweaking or testing? Good luck at work next week. Sounds like you have everything in place. Good for you! Brynn and you are in my prayers, hon.
HUGS
Love this picture of Brynn and Neela. They are completely precious.
Sounds like you have an amazing support system of friends and family babysitting Brynn - not to mention a really sweet work environment! Wish I could pull off 20 hour weeks but I doubt they'd let that slide in residency. ;)
I read your FSH post and was completely heartbroken for you, Sara. I think you need to follow what you feel deep down is right... and I wish you all the best with your decision. I can only imagine how it would feel to receive that news.
Oh, I forgot to mention the most important part - sending "good LFTs" thoughts and prayers for little Brynn tomorrow!
AGH, Lots of happenings to deal with. You are in my thoughts
Going back to work is SO hard.
Thinking lots of good LFT thoughts for Brynn!
Well I haven't had any problems with posting but then I haven't really been posting that much. I did notice several posts from people that showed up on my reader (yours may have been one of them) but when I went to comment the post was gone.
I hope that going back to work goes well and that you will soon be back in the swing of it all. I'm sure it will be hard leaving Brynn home though.
I'll send lots of wishes that the LFT's come back normal and that no further intervention is needed. She's such a cutie lying there with Neela.
And I don't blame you for swearing about the FSH. That has to be discouraging with everything else you've been through. I hope your able to get some answers there. Hugs to you.
Well, I would have been immature and cursed up a storm. Nothing wrong with it.
Take one step at a time, Brynn's test (praying they stay "boring"), starting work, and then back to your levels.
Sorry you have to leave Brynn...but gotta bring home some bacon right??
And I am sorry about the FSH test. That sucks Monkey balls.
So sorry!!!
So glad to hear you decided on 20 hours a week. That is a nice compromise between working and staying home. Its also a good way to ease into this new routine. I cried the entire first week I went back to work after dropping my daughter off in day care. It will get easier, although for me the guilt of leaving them has never totally gone away. Part of being a mom I suppose. :-)
As for the FSH levels, talk to all the doctors that you trust and get all the information in order to make a decision. Check out what all of your options are. I'm so sorry you have this issue to deal with!
Tammy
Yes, I've had tons of blogger problems lately too. I wrote a super long post and blogger ate it. Ugh.
That dog sure loves that baby! I just love when you post pictures of the two of them.
I'm sorry to hear about your FSH levels, it must be very scary and frustrating. I'll be thinking of little Brynn to have good LFTs today.
You and Brynn are in my prayers. Good luck with going back to work. My advice would be to repack your pump the minute you get home. Will you have to bring yours or can you borrow a hospital one? It sounds like you have a good plan for childcare.
Praying for lowered LFTs and FSH.
Sorry for this added stress as you get a new routine going back to work. I will be thinking of you and your family for all the best.
(I don't like to swear, especially with the boys around, but once in awhile it is quite therapeutic.)
Ugh. sorry about the FSH. Have you considered using DHEA? Mine was 12.75 in Jan, and then 4 weeks after using DHEA it was at 8, and 8 weeks after using DHEA it was 7.18. Also, my antral count is going up as well, up from 10 to 23.
It is worth thinking about...
Can I just say how much I ~~~LOVE~~~ those Brynn & Neela pictures??? They are SOOOO cute. Absolutely adorable. I hope my dog is as happy to have a cuddle bug too... somehow I think not.
Praying for the LFT tests.
Did you say a bad word and piss off Blogger? LOL. I say bad words all the time and they don't seem to care at all. They must expect it from me :)
It sounds like you have a plan all mapped out, both for work and sitting duties. I know nothing will compare to you being there yourself, but you may find you enjoy being able to get out amongst the grown ups through the week.
Hope it all goes smoothly for you.
I'm really sorry for the crappy labs Sara. I know how hard it is for you to have that choice effectively taken away from you.
{{HUGS}}
Thinking lots of normal LFT thoughts....
And I am so sorry about your FSH, hoping it normalises, too.
xx
J
PS never sweat language :)
Oh, Sara. I'm so completely sorry about your FSH results. You must be having a really hard time with that. Was it high before when you were doing IUI/IVF or has it gotten worse? Sorry, sweetie. If you want to talk I'm here.
I would be cussing too. You have a right to express yourself!
I hope Brynn's liver tests are just perfect so you don't have to worry anymore! Take one thing at a time- don't think about the FSH levels right now. You have enough on your plate to keep you busy. Everything will be OK!!
Who needs... a blanket, a swaddler, or a stuffed animal. You have Neela to keep Brynn company. How sweet that is. They will be best buds...
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